I had been dragging my feet with my LifeBook lesson because I felt overwhelmed about my commitments. I am not sure how it happened exactly but I ended up with two lessons due on the same date for two different platforms. I have been fearful that I could actually come up with teaching ideas for either lessons and it completely sent me in a state of procrastination.
I know that sounds strange but I've been in a weird and different space this year. But like with all things that feel overwhelming, all that was required was to actually just start.
TheStudyofSelf - 16"x16" Stretched Canvas - Black gesso and Titanium Buff and brown Stabilo pencil.
Day one, I put my canvas down. Day two, I drew up and day three, I did my undertones and that was enough to give me the momentum I needed to start. I worked steadily everyday after work and I managed to film my lesson and I have to say, I loved the journey. I loved that I had a theme before I started and I loved the introspection work that went along with this piece. Working mindfully helped me think deeply and helped me find my way.
To me there is still a sacred quietness that comes out of the act of showing up everyday in spite of where my heart is at. Sometimes I forget that. When I have a week like this, I'm reminded that there is so much growth that happens in this place of daily work. I am encouraged.
“Small actions lead us to the larger movements in our creative lives...”