I know we are all in the same boat of feeling completely overwhelmed by the circumstances of the world currently. If you are anything like me, are you struggling to concentrate for more than two minutes at a time? I keep finding piles of unfolded washing in different places of the house and unfinished chores here and there. I have found this feeling a little out of control and my natural inclination is to go within and try figure out what’s going on and how are we going to come out of this.

But I just keep coming up with this phrase… “I don’t know what the answers are”. I realized we don’t often find ourselves in this place of not knowing and not being able to do anything about our problems. We aren’t a helpless people by nature. We are always able to do something, right or wrong to walk towards something that helps us feel more in control, right? I’m being reminded that we aren’t actually in control even if we make ourselves think or feel like we are. Isn’t it so humbling?

So all I can do is right now is continue to show up within my four walls. I am getting up early to practice stillness with a small group that are connecting on Zoom, I’m so grateful for this. I grab coffee and breakfast and sit on our small patio and read some things on my phone. Then I head to my mat for yoga. My amazing teacher has been sharing live on Instagram so I have been able to get out of my head and get back into my body and strongly breathe through each moment and movement. After that I shower and pop into my garden, do some chores, work or paint. I’m working at showing up to paint or do something creative everyday, even when my heart isn’t feeling like it. After lunch, I paint some more, read and/or write and then head gently into the evening routine. I’m still tweaking my schedule but I’m being encouraged as I’m starting to see a new routine forming.

I’m silently haunted by the words I shared with my dear friend Natalie Eslick (Shadybower) earlier this year…

“Seriously, all I want to do is stay at home doing yoga and paint all day.”

To help me through this time, will be writing and working through these two books again. Just doing small amounts daily.

I would love to hear more about your lockdown routines.

I have also finally got my act together and I’ve started pulling some of my videos and putting a little platform together of material of past works and it will also include some new works which I will continue to add to weekly. I’m back to editing furiously. I’ll send out a newsletter in the next couple of days about that. But tonight I will share my first little offering of playing and painting clay. It’s an older lesson but it might new to some or a beautiful reminder of the goodness of playing with clay.

I know so many artists coming together to offer free material to help navigate during this time. I love that so much. I think it’s one of those little steps forward to help us feel useful during this time when we are feeling so helpless.

Again, sending out so much love and care always.